please. But sometimes I find writing it down helpd me find a way through on my own, which is the only way.

I feel deeply depressed today, and at the moment can't find any energy to pull myself through. The "darkness at noon" scaffolding doesn't help - four or five more moths of it. it's been raining since 6am, so that makes it dark even with all the electric lights on - and dismal. Each task I do (eg sorting my pension out) feels like wading in sewage. And the guy who has meant to be fixing and upgrading my website makes a point of being unavailable, managing only phone on my fixed line when I'm out. Why not call my mobile?

Etc. I'm shortening the list and simplifying. And of course at the back of everything is my mother and sister.

So gloom chez Alec. No doubt my inate and probably inane optimism will reassert itself shortly.