I've been a diet for a week. It felt the right time to break it.
The diet's doing my digestion no end of good. But, ever since I got back from holiday, happiness has come in waves. And so has panic. Demons inside me, often dancing. The better I feel, the worse I feel sometimes. What else is new?? It's complicated.
A lot of my bad feelings are about shame. I'll explain that later - at the moment I can't really explain it to myself.
Little things annoy - just excuses. Not-so-new shoes that go on hurting. My new camera doesn't come with the right software. Bad sleep, troubled dreams. Inpenetrable packaging. A fucked-up download. No nice surprises... I'm pissed off because I have no nice surprises? Definitely time for Ice Cream.
Mocha-Coffeee flavoured.
I'm feeling good now, better than for what feels like ages.
