onwards, upwards and the inner sabateur

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onwards, upwards and the inner sabateur

by alecweston ^Pro @ 2008-09-01 – 18:37:47

Today, I finished my tour of Brighton cafes, slowly reading through the manuscript of my novel, away from my Mac so I wouldn't start making fiddly changes. There are things to change, but apart from one short passage it's more a matter of minor word engineering rather than anything more profound. And, what's more, it reads back well.

Also today my profesional Illustrator friend has sent me her final version of the cover - plus brilliant review quotes she's made up for the back, until I have some proper ones.

So - to quote her favourite phrase "onwards and upwards"...

Well, of course not, not quite. Whether is the beer I had yesterday, or my Inner Sabateur unaided, I've got terrible stomach pain today and don't feel good at all.

Why break the habit of a life time? My terror of success has always been far more vivd and potent than my fear of failure.
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- SeasideMan ^Pro
- 2008-09-01 @ 19:02:00
Why does success scare you?

Tom.
- - alecweston ^Pro
  - 2008-09-01 @ 19:20:29
  Ah. You can look forward to at least one more post on this subject soon
  
  I think a lot of people are scared of success.
  
  In over-simplistic terms, I think my dad was always scared of me outshining him, and I 'caught' his fear.
  - - SeasideMan ^Pro
    - 2008-09-01 @ 20:59:37
    If it's inherited, that's clear enough. I don't really understand it, but I can see how it could happen. Thanks for explaining.
    
    Tom.
    - - alecweston ^Pro
      - 2008-09-01 @ 21:11:51
      I have not explained at all well if you thought I was talking about genetics! No way. I was talking about the psychological and emotional relationship I had with my father, and how much he depended on me not to challenge him.
      
      Hopefully, I will try to explain at more length on a post soon
      - SeasideMan ^Pro
        
        2008-09-01 @ 21:22:08
        
        No, I wasn't thinking of inheritance in a genetics sense, more in an "acquire from ancestors" sense.
        
        Tom.
        
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- - soyunperdedor ^Pro
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  - 2008-09-01 @ 19:21:40
  I know you're not asking me, but my instinctive response was being a success carries the risk of falling, whereas remaining a 'failure' (although I don't like that word) means you can still reach for something.
  
  Or something like that.
  
  Don't question me though, it was just my first response.
  - - alecweston ^Pro
    - 2008-09-01 @ 19:37:11
    First repsonses are often the best - and I think yours is an excellenty perceptive response.
    
    Also, I think, for a lot of us - resentment (of those who are succesful) is easier to cope with than self-love and pride.
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  - - SeasideMan ^Pro
    - 2008-09-01 @ 21:00:36
    OK, as requested I shan't question you. Thanks for answering.
    
    Tom.
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  - - Znethru ^Pro
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    - 2008-09-01 @ 23:39:45
    Interesting point, Soy!
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