All these revelations and epiphanies and pushing myself in new directions and impatience and need for perfection and work-drive and earnestness and solitude and self-pity and stuckness and light lunches and plans and resolutions and need for approval and and epiphanies and pushing myself in new directions introspection, bloody introspection and impatience and need for perfection and work-drive and earnestness and solitude and self-pity and stuckness and light lunches and plans and resolutions and

it's time to lighten up.