Well, perhaps that's a bit of an exaggeration.

But today I came back from my mother's by bus and train.

For the last few weeks I have been driving my mother's Fiesta up and down the A3.  Quicker but fraught.  Of course it wold have felt a lot better if it had a stereo sytem.  Better if it were a Saab. 

But, what i disliked most was what it turned me into - frazzled, frustrated, impatient.  I don't think I have driven badly - although I have managed to pick up two fines - onefor an illegal  turn (3 point infact, but not worth arguing - there werne't any points involved) And one for going 37 mph down a hill in a village, which was  naughty but hardly heinous.  Nevertheless, my driving frame of mind made me feel I had regressed to a place I had left behind.  Recently I've felt so much more calm.

I have been driving for 45 years - an overland trip to Iran and back.  I have have driven in more countries than a lot of people have visited - and enjoyed doing so.  Give me a Summer night drive down rural roads in a decent car and music system...  but not now, rushing home across South East England, with too much on my mind, too much traffic and no one in the passenger seat.