Just awoken from a nigthmare. Forced myself to wake up.
Last nghtt a bad dream, tonght a nightmare. I havaen't had one for years.
Especially this one - a version of the one I reblogged a few weeks ago.
This time I have murdered a young boy - and I and another (both of us young kids?) are about to be tortured and bullied. Our friends are walking away, not believing. An old friend (now dead) walks away.
It's set in an elegant country hose, complete with furniture. Part of me is feeling the enfolding catastrophe.
Before, an old colleague (at the time I last had the nightmare?) has previously saved my job, thanks to management consultants...
Yes, a jumble. I'm writing it down so it'll go away.
This had happened before when I become happy (eg on Christmas day)
MEMO TO SELF: I HAVE NEVER KILLED OR TORTURED ANYONE. I DO NOT DESERVE TO BE TORTURED
Nightmares are horrible and it's a good idea to write them down, but of course tho' they may not feel it now they are merely symbolic..
To dream that you have committed a murder suggests that you are involved in a bad situation which u feel may ruin your reputation. You may also have some repressed feelings of anger for which u feel guilty enough to be tortured, but these ideas someone else has probably placed in your mind at a younger age...
Positive affirmations should help, and usually when u go back to sleep they aren't repeated. If it helps Alec remember the stand that u have taken with your family over xmas..